Happy New Year to everyone first off. I sincerely hope that it is a better year for all of this. In some ways it is completely different for me already, and others there hasn't yet been any change. So let's keep this to the things that are different. Obviously, there is no Ironman in my future, not for 2010, anyway. That has left big gaps in my life, that have effected me more than I thought it would. The last year plus was very structured for me. I had workouts on a monthly white board, and there was rarely any deviation from that unless I was injured. If something was scheduled, I did it. End of story. I couldn't put off a workout until the next day, because the next day had it's own schedule. That has changed now. I am not in "race mode" currently, so I am not pushing myself to train like I was. There's always tomorrow.....or next week. Part of this is a mental let down after something I focused on for so long, and part of it is a physical letdown also. My lower back hasn't yet recovered from the pounding, and I my right shoulder that was sprained in the crash of October 2009 is still giving me issues. An old neck injury has flared up again too, causing me left shoulder pain and headaches. Activity might be what I need to help this, but it's hard to get that desire for me right now when my body hurts. I had put off writing this message, hoping things would improve. My motivation level isn't very high, and for the first time in over a year, I feel like I need others to lift me up. I am in a psychological and physical funk at the same time. I am still here, dabbling in exercise, but with no real goal in mind. At this point I would just like to try and get in better conditioning again.